Jensen House

  When I first started this blog my intention was for it to be an outlet to share my thoughts and feelings, as if I were writing in a journal. I like to keep it somewhat peppy (unless we're talking about cancer) so that I can look back on happy times and memories. However, if I want this to truly be an outlet for myself I feel the need to be honest that life isn't always peppy. I feel like there is so much going on that I don't feel like I can discuss with anyone for multiple reasons. So if there is one person reading this that feels like there is a lot to bear right now, I see you. I'm sorry you are having to bottle things up. I know the feeling well.  Life feels heavy right now. I said to Brody the other day that I feel like I have been going through a hard time for years. I was driving home from work today and the song called "Today Has Been Okay" came on. Today was not one of my better days. Neither was yesterday. But the song did take a bit of a lift off ...

  This past time we went to BC I realized how beautiful it all is. At one point I meant to say how I didn't appreciate the scenery when I lived there but I used the word respect instead of appreciate. So it became a running joke in my head that I didn't respect BC when I lived there. I swear it was funnier in my head... These trips back home are becoming more and more important to me. With all Brody and I have been through, I was very ready to see my family and friends. I really made the most of our time there but it never feels like enough time.  The first day we were there we headed to the White Rock with my whole family. It is so nice to be all together, even if it is windy and cold and my back is broken from surgery.  A BC favourite for Brody and I is always Krispy Kreme. We recruited Manda and Ethan to drive us and were able to spend the morning with them.  My big sister  My family has done professional photos for as long as I can remember. We usually do th...

  The past six or seven months or so, I have been seeing a new therapist who has been walking me through a "trauma timeline" of my life. It is about as intense as it sounds. We started at my earliest memory and have discussed anything I remember from my twenty-three years that at all doesn't sit right with me. Whether it is traumatic, sad or unsettling. As we have been working on it, I have thought more about my life story than I probably ever have. Though it is mostly the hard things we have discussed, sometimes it reminds me of positive moments or memories.  As I was describing the twists and turns of my life to my counsellor, I remembered an instance where something that was really troubling turned into something really positive and I will never forget it. I wrote down some point form notes and wanted to sit down here and document it and share it with anyone who might stumble across this post.  I worked at a car dealership in Calgary for two ish years when I first move...

  I knew I wanted to document my experience regarding the last month. At times I sat down to write about it but ultimately felt too overwhelmed to get into the details. To be honest, I am also a bit confused about the following events, since I was quite groggy for quite some time after the surgery. Today I feel moved to sit down and tell the story of my hospital experience and surgery and all the things that have come with it.  I have had so many kind people reach out wanting to know how I am doing. I am okay. Looking back on the day after I woke up, I can't believe how much progress I have made in three weeks. I went into this surgery knowing the risks and understanding that there would be a chance things might look a bit different for my life or that I might not even have a life anymore. If you had any conversation with me in the weeks or days leading up to the procedure, you know that I was really scared for my life. I am here writing this so we know this story has a happy ...

 We had four days notice from when they booked our flights to when we were in Florida. When we agreed to this whole arrangement, we were told the Alberta Government would be covering it. Flights for us, accomodation, set us up with a car and food. Well turns out the doctor had some "misinformation" and the government was actually going to cover my flight and the treatment. I know that isn't nothing but that is a big thing to have misinformation about, and it felt like they said that just to get me to agree to it, only to surprise us with four days notice. We had that short time to scramble to find a place to live, budget the two months we would be away and try to figure out Uber. The cost of renting a car in the US for two adults who aren't twenty-five, would've been more than the cost of our rent for two months. For that price, we'll walk.  The whole stress of the arrival really put a bad taste in my mouth about the whole experience. It was December 1st, it w...