Jensen House

 My family doesn't feel the same. My mom is really sad and this Covid lockdown is really getting old. I have sat my parents down and told them that I don't want to be a member of the church anymore. Looking back on it, why did I think that this would be a good time to tell my mom this? Her entire world ripped out from under her and I was like, "Oh by the way, I hate the church and don't want anything to do with it." Not my best move. Sorry, mom.  My parents hold a family meeting about a week after my Grandpa's death. "So, how is everyone feeling?" my dad asked us. We hadn't ever experienced a loss like this, but the real elephant in the room was how hard it was to watch our mom in this state. I remember listening to her talk through sobs about how she would never see her dad again. I felt tears running down my cheeks but I felt numb. I wasn't used to seeing my mom crumble. We went around the circle to share our thoughts but I knew that we all...

 I'm sitting on the stairs at our house in Salmo. Jill, Holly and I have burst into song, singing "The Lions Sleep Tonight" and I'm taking a video of it. I have a massive mosquito bite on my eyelid and my grandma recommended I use toothpaste to ease the itching. So I have toothpaste smeared all over my eyelid. We're singing and laughing and I am trying to numb the pain of Hans' sudden departure. Suddenly, my mom runs outside in a panic. She has received a text that her dad has collapsed and is unresponsive.  I can still hear her cry, visualize her face, feel the hot August heat on my face as I stand outside to hear about what is happening. We were six hours from Abbotsford, where my grandpa was lying unconscious in the hospital. He had a heart attack and collapsed outside and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. It was utter chaos. Because of the lack of cell reception, my mom was just trying to call somebody to find out what was happening but she wasn'...

 I'm really glad that Hans and I are close again. He is definitely not the same guy that I went to school with, but I wasn't the same as I was back then either. I was up to no good pretty much all of the time and Hans kind of thrived off of it. One night, I was in a bit of a vulnerable situation and I tell him that I love him. He says he loves me too. He actually says that he never stopped loving me and that we've always been made for each other. I have heard through the grapevine that a girl at a party was talking loudly about how she and Hans had been "hanging out." When this information gets back to me, I ask him about it and he says that he's never even heard her name before and he only wants me. I am just eating this up. I really do believe him. When he shows up to the gym later, we talk about it and laugh about how people would really do anything to break up a happy couple. I post a video of myself singing and he responds to it and says "You're ...

 A lot of my friends got married during Covid. There was a wedding in May, and it was the first "social distanced event" since the shut down. It kind of felt like what heaven would be like, as everyone pulled up in seperate cars just so happy to see each other. Manda and Ethan came together and I came in a separate car because they had plans after. So I pull up to the wedding and it felt like I was the only one not in a relationship. I was still crushing on Greg pretty hard and was still under the impression that it would go somewhere because I was in fact, heartbroken and clueless.  The whole wedding, I feel out of place. It felt like a couples party that I was eleventh-wheeling at. I figured that nobody actually wanted me there, so I skip the cake cutting, tell Manda and Ethan that I'm leaving and I get in the car and drive away. As I'm leaving the parking lot, I see a crowd of couples that I know. They're mostly my friends. In the sea of romance, I see somethin...

TW if you're sensitive like me :) Covid is at its height. The restrictions are tight, more things are getting cancelled by the hour, and my trip that I had planned to go see Manda was cancelled. I had told my co workers at the daycare that I needed a few days off after my breakup, but it closed down anyways. My boss said that she didn't think it would be an easy re-open because a lot of the moms of the kids were upset that you were going to have to be vaccinated to come back in. Because obviously it was our fault that we didn't want their kids to get a virus that was killing people. Anyways, my boss asked me if I wanted to start working at the front desk of the gym. I knew some of the front desk staff. It seemed like a bit of a frat house at times, but it was going to be a bit more weekly hours and a change of scenery. I agreed pretty quickly.  Manda was coming home from BYU. We wished it was under happier circumstances but we were really excited to have her home. I needed ...

 It's Sunday morning. March 15th, 2020. It's the first Sunday of the Covid shutdown and we keep getting more news of things being cancelled because of the pandemic. My parents still want us in our Sunday best and we're going to watch church over Zoom, but I can't stop thinking about my fight with Gaston from the night before. I text him good morning, he responds. I decide that it's time I address these problems that we've been having. I'm not dumb and I know that these issues can't keep going this way, so we need to fix them in order to live happily ever after.  I text Gaston. I say something along the lines of, "I know we've been having a lot of issues and we've been fighting lately. I just wanted to check in and make sure that you still love me." His response hits me like a truck. "Yeah... We should talk about this in person." I mean this was a first, him wanting to talk about things in person. But this was not a good respon...